You're the line in the sand when i go too far.

I'm in, you're out.

2010-02-24T06:27:00.002+08:00

“ The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be. ”

People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past. (:

Yours truly.

SEVEN-teen.

2010-02-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

" In childhood, we yearn to be grown-ups. In old age, we yearn to be kids. It just seems that all would be wonderful if we didn't have to celebrate our birthdays in chronological order. "

HAPPY 17 BOOBS-DAY, ADIK!
May you include Allah in all you do. Thank Allah for giving you a new life again. Today is the time to fulfill your dreams because Allah has given you a chance to change and to do better than before. May Allah bless you on your birthday and everyday in everyway.

& no matter what happen, u will always be my irritating sister, u little twirp! (:
I love you! *Hugs & kisses*

Yours truly.

Journey of life.

2010-02-22T09:19:00.004+08:00

" Pain exists solely to make us realise the value of our lives without it. The happiness, the exultation, and above all, the bliss. It’s the times that take our breath away, but also the times that we wish our breath had left long ago that make life everything it is. The wonder at how the world works, the attempts to figure it out in hopes that we can prepare ourselves for the end. Enjoy this rollercoaster ride while the tracks are beneath to catch you, and most of all before you reach the tracks’ end. "

Yours truly.

& you...

2010-02-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for paths. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… That you really are strong, And you really do have worth.

Yours truly.

Yes, you.

2010-02-19T21:17:00.005+08:00

U said u don't care anymore. But why bother messaging me? & the reason why i didn't replied to ur messages is because i can't be bothered by u - not anymore, after what u did to me. Think before u speak, please. Pfft.

Yours truly.

To all my friends...

2010-02-14T21:11:00.004+08:00

" May u always have enough happiness to keep you sweet, enough trials to keep you strong, enough success to keep u eager, enough faith to give you courage, enough determination to make each day a good day. "

To all my friends who are single, love is like a butterfly.
The more u chase it, the more it eludes u.
But if u just let it fly, it will come to u when u least expected it.
Love can make u happy but often it hurts.
But love is only special when u give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take ur time and choose the best.

To all my friends who are attached, love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person.
It's about finding someone who help u become the best person u can be.

To all my friends who are just taking others for a ride, never say " I Love You " if u don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.
Never touch a life if u mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all u do is to lie.
The cruel-est thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall & it works both ways.

To all my friends who are engaged, the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together, but how good u are for each other.

To all my friends who are married, love is not about " It's ur fault ", but " I'm sorry ".
Not " Where are u ", but " I'm right here ".
Not " How could u " , but " i understand ".
Not " I wish u were ", but " i'm thankful u are ".

To all my friends who are heartbroken, heartbreaks last as long as u want & cut as deep as u allow then to go.
The challenge is not how to survive a heartbreaks, but to learn from them.

To all my friends who are naive, how to be in love is to be consistent but not too persistent.
Share & never be unfair.
Understand and try not to demand.
& get hurt but never keep the pain.

To all my friends who are possessive, it breaks ur heart to see the one u love is happy with someone else.
But its more painful to know that the one u love is unhappy with u.

To all my friends who are afraid to confess, love hurts when u break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with u.
But love hurts the most when the person u love has no idea about how u feel about him/her.

To all my friends who are still holding on, a sad thing about life is when u meet someone & fall in love - only to find out that in the end, it was never meant to be.
& that u have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.
If that person doensn't worth it now, its not going to be worth it in a year or 10 years from now.

To all my friends who are who u are, this post is not meant to offend anybody.
I'm sorry if this post hurt u in any way.
Its just a post for all to share.

Yours truly.

So you think you can dance; Part 2.

2010-02-10T06:39:00.005+08:00

Yours truly.

So you think you can dance.

2010-02-09T16:14:00.004+08:00

Yours truly.

Why is that so?

2010-02-03T01:23:00.005+08:00

One day, a professor asked his students, " Why do we SHOUT instead of speak when we are ANGRY? "

All the students thought for a while. One answered, " Because we lost our cool. That’s why we SHOUT. "

Asked the professor again, " But the person is just right next to you, why can’t we talk softly but have to SHOUT? "

Everyone gave their opinions but none was accepted by the professor.

Lastly, explained by the professor, " When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us. But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder. It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why? This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepen, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words. We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look. "

Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.

Yours truly.

Stronger.

2010-01-31T20:11:00.003+08:00

" Promise urself to be strong that nothing can disturb ur peace of ur mind. Look at the sunny side of everything & make ur optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, & expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past & press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of urself that u have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on ur side so long as u are true to the best that is in u. "

Unfortunately, i'm not as strong as what u think i am. & at times, i do miss his family so much that i could only watch them from a distance...

Yours truly.

TwenTEEN - One.

2010-01-28T02:27:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to u!
Happy birthday to u!
Happy birthday to Muhd Minsharshim!
Happy birthday to u!

HAPPY 21ST BURST-DAY, OLD FRIEND!
May God continue to bless u life and give u the desires of ur heart. & wishing miles of smiles in ur coming years. Till then, should u need someone to lean on, i will be here for ya. Thank u for ur friendship throughout all of the years. U will always be my friend, beyond words, beyond time and beyond distance. (:

" You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. "

Yours truly.

Picking up every little pieces.

2010-01-26T04:50:00.006+08:00

At the end of the day, when i crawl into my bed and all the lights go out, my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Yes, i'm a little bruised, slightly broken and permanently scarred. But i'm still here, aren't i? I'm still fighting. I'm still smiling. I'm still waking up everyday, to go through it all over again. This life may be hard but it's still a gift. And i'm going to live every moment of it.

Yours truly.

Blinks of life.

2010-01-25T02:22:00.005+08:00

" There are moments that mark your life, moments when you realize nothing will ever be the same. And time is divided into two parts, before this and after this. Now sometimes you can feel such a moment coming. That’s the test… or so you should tell yourself, that at times like these, strong people keep moving forward anyway, no matter what they're gonna find. "

In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life. But in the other hand, I felt like as if I had the worst nightmare after the happy lead of the fantasy.

How hard I try to forget, it seems like the past is always catching up with me. I just keep asking myself and I don't know which hurts the most - Saying something and wish I had not or saying nothing and wishing I had? Maybe everything is to late.

But if there is time, all I want is just for you to run your fingers through my soul and just feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceived as I perceived, experience, examine and maybe just for once let go the ego and understand everything.

Of all goodbyes, the kind that which hurt the most was the one my ears never or will not want to hear, yet my heart knew it's already been said. There is alot to be said and I want you to know, but I don't think it is even relevant or able to change anything. Its all been said and done.

To move on take alot of courage. After what had happen, you just leave me lingering in limbo blind folded & without any direction given.

I might be okay. & I know now and maybe you knew that inside, that you couldn't give me that yet. So that's why you set me free. You would never have wished for more than I would've given you but you never give it a chance. So you will never know what would've been.

Maybe someday you'll regret it and come back. Maybe someday you'll think it was the best decision you ever made, and will be proud of yourself. But maybe someday I might be with someone else, maybe then you'll stop and realize what you're missing. By then its too late for everything.

I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true.

In this life, I was loved by you and I love you once, with all my heart but you broke the most fragile part of me which is my heart. & I will be thankful that there is at least a chapter of me in your life for you to keep as memory.

Yours truly.

Gabe Bondoc.

2010-01-22T04:15:00.001+08:00

New Found Love.
*Flutter eyelashes*

Yours truly.

Erti sayang.

2010-01-21T07:32:00.006+08:00

Sayangi dia dengan hati, bukan dengan perasaan. Jika anda meletakkan sesuatu perhubungan berdasarkan perasaan, ianya akan gagal kerana perasaan sentiasa berubah dari masa ke semasa.

Sayangi dia seadanya. Di dunia terdapat hampir 6 billion manusia dengan 6 billion personaliti. Dia sememangnya seorang yang istimewa dan biarkan ianya kekal begitu. Jangan sesekali terfikir untuk mengubah apa-apa tentang dia kerana sekali anda mengubah, selamanya anda akan terus mengubah dirinya. Tentu anda masih ingat, anda terpikat padanya kerana dia adalah dia. Maka, tiada alasan untuk anda mengubah dia untuk menjadi seseorang yang lain.

Sayangi dia sepenuh hati. Sesungguhnya dia telah banyak berkorban untuk anda. Dengan kelebihan yang ada padanya, dia berpeluang untuk menjalin hubungan dengan seseorang yang lebih sempurna tapi demi cinta, dia telah memilih diri anda. Maka, jangan sesekali cuba untuk mempermain-mainkan keluhuran cintanya.

Hormati pendirian dan keputusan dia. Jangan anda merayu dan jangan mencipta alasan supaya dia menerima cinta anda kerana kelak, yang anda akan dapat darinya hanyalah cinta simpati dan bukannya cinta setulus hati.

Yakinkan diri anda akan keistimewaan dia. Dia adalah satu-satunya di dunia ini dan jangan mengharapkan kesempurnaan dari dia kerana dia telah pun cukup sempurna semenjak anda mula terpikat padanya.

Percaya akan dirinya. Sentiasa bersangka baik padanya jika kita juga mahukan sebegitu darinya. Pastikan anda akan sentiasa meletakkan diri anda di tempatnya sebelum melakukan apa-apa. Jika anda sendiri tidak dapat menerimanya, apatahlagi dia.

Jangan berjanji menyayangi dia untuk selama-lamanya kerana selama-lamanya bagi anda mungkin akan berakhir keesokkan harinya, tapi berjanjilah untuk menyayangi dirinya seolah-olah setiap hari itu adalah hari yang terakhir untuk anda berdua.

Bercinta dengannya adalah seperti memberi hati anda kepadanya untuk dilukai tapi kepercayaan itu penting. Percayalah kepadanya, nescaya dia akan melindunginya sepenuh jiwa dan raga.

Jangan sesekali meninggalkan dia tanpa sebarang alasan. Dia bukan hanya akan setakat menangis kerana kecewa. Dia akan meneruskan kehidupannya seperti biasa, ketahuilah bahawa jiwanya akan mati secara perlahan.

Jangan cepat berbangga dengan diri anda, memenangi hatinya bukanlah satu kejayaan yang mutlak tetapi anugerah itu hanya layak anda perolehi setelah anda berjaya menyayanginya sehingga ke akhirhayat. Ketahuilah, dia memilih anda adalah kerana dia percaya bahawa anda adalah seorang yang jujur.

Yours truly.

Kodel Fadhil.

2010-01-20T04:24:00.003+08:00

Fadhil.. Fadhil.. *Shakes head*
Hahahahaha.

Buzzz, buzz, buzz-zy.

2010-01-15T05:09:00.003+08:00

" Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present. "

On weekdays:

Attend school in the morning.
In & out of the hospital for check-ups.
Would reach home at around 5++pm or 6++pm.
Either complete my CAs or mug for my upcoming test/exams once i reach home from school/hospital.

On weekends:

Drag my feet to work.
Will end work at either 4pm or latest, 8pm.
Either went home straight or meet up with my friends to do some catching up.
Right after i'm at home, i would either mug [like again] or read the book that i've bought about a year ago.

Hence the lack of updates. (:
Will be back if i've the time to do so. Till then, take care.

Yours truly.

The little one.

2010-01-09T21:41:00.005+08:00

Dear little one, i can't wait to hold ur tiny body into my arms..
Dear little one, i can't wait to kiss u on ur tiny forehead & tell myself how fortunate i am to have u..
Dear little one, i can't wait for u to be born into this world & live happily ever after with me..

Yours truly.

A bad start.

2010-01-01T03:23:00.003+08:00

I start my new year with a bad one. A VERY bad one, i must say. & guess what? I'm tearing myself apart right now. Can't it get any worser? *Sigh*

"Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars won't ever fade.. away
Tried to break my heart, well, it's broke.
Tried to hang me high, well, i'm choked.
Wanted rain on me, well, i'm soaked.. Soaked to the skin.

It's the end where i begin
It's the end where i begin

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk.. away.. away
Tried to break my heart, well, it's broke.
Tried to hang me high, well, i'm choked.
Wanted rain on me, well, i'm soaked.. Soaked to the skin."

Yours truly.

Thank you, 2009.

2009-12-31T13:04:00.002+08:00

Its the 31st of December. & the next thing u know, it's the start of a brand new year. & also, that's where people start to pen down their resolution(s) & reflection(s) of 2009. Well, i used to be one of them. Cause i realise pen-ing down resolution doesn't seem to work or happen, for me, atleast. Besides, things around me happened when i least expect them. So, i personally think if i want certain things to come true, might as well i shouldn't even thought about it. Right??

On top of that, 2009 is the year where i was legal, the year where i went through hardships, the year where i met new friends, the year where i knew who were true & who were not, the year where i keep on 'changing' boyfriends till i finally met him, the year where things started to go haywire between us - Alhamdulillah, things are going fine between us eventhough we do have a little-wittle tiffs in between, & of course. the year that pass by so fast that it's gonna be 2010 in hours time. I think its pretty much mundane - or so i thought - as the things that have past affects how i'm gonna view life ahead. So, without wasting my time, i would like to say thank u to 2009, for i have learnt a lot during the whole journey of the year.

Yours truly.

Jealousy is the word.

2009-12-22T05:19:00.001+08:00

It's Tuesday. The sun is yet to rise. & like any other days, i'll be working my ass off to get extra moolahs for myself. How boring can my life get? ): To add on to the misery, i've been waking up way too early this past few days. Hmmm..

Anyway, Dad booked 5 tickets to catch the movie, Avatar, at Ehub with the siblings today. Pfft! & he still have the cheeks to make me jealous by showing the tickets that he bought yesterday. Grrrr! I bet the sisters will be like, " Kakak! Cerita Avatar best tahu. Rugi akak tak tengok. " *-___-*
Whatever kiddos. I could still watch that movie online without forking out my moolahs. *^__^*

Till then, au revoir people. Gotta catch some sleep before i head to work.

Yours truly.

World of witchcraft.

2009-12-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

I swear this is FUCKING hilarious! Hahaha.

Yours truly.

Ass kicking kid.

2009-12-14T20:49:00.002+08:00

CUTE KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN?!
CUTE KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN?!

Yours truly.

Have u ever...?

2009-12-12T01:22:00.001+08:00

Have u ever felt that ur being ignored when u know that ur significant other is busy with work & he/she doesn't have the time to talk with u?
Have u ever felt that ur like a nobody to ur significant other when u sense something is not right with them & u tried possible ways of asking them why, but ended up, they scold u just by asking?
Have u ever felt that ur significant other doesn't love u anymore when the way they talk/message u is quite different?
Have u ever felt like giving up on ur significant other when u tried ur very best to understand their unpredictable behaviour but in actual fact, u failed to do so?
Have u ever felt like crying when u think about ur significant other & the way they react towards u earlier on, before going to bed?

Have u ever felt that way...? \:

Yours truly.

Life just isn't.

2009-12-09T19:00:00.002+08:00

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call u & its not about who u've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who u've kissed, what sport u play, or which guy or girl likes u. It's not about ur shoes or ur hair or the colour of ur skin or where u live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept u or not. Life isn't about if u have lots of friends, or if u are alone, & it's not about how accepted or unaccepted u are. Life just isn't about that.

But life is about who u love & who u hurt. It's about how u feel about urself. It's about trust, happiness & compassion. It's about sticking up for ur friends & replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance & building confidence. It's about what u say & what u mean. It's about seeing people for who they are & not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use ur life to touch someone's else in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what's life about.

Yours truly.

My knight on his white horse.

2009-12-02T07:50:00.000+08:00

" Love is everything it's cracked up to be. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. "
I never thought I'd find myself the day that i found you.
Plans for only one of me are future plans for two.
Soul mates in this universe that make the world surreal.
For when I'd given up on dreams, u showed me love is real.
And now that all my love for u will never cease to grow, please take me in ur loving arms & never let me go....

Dear boy,

Months passed and our stability floundered. Love is like a roller coaster, and i must admit sometimes all the turns & twists made us sick. But through everything, we had an amazing and beautiful relationship. After all, i still love u for who u are eventhough u can be such a pain in the ass. (:

HAPPY 3 MONTHLYVERSARY.

I love u, u love me & that is all that matters. <3

Yours truly.

Jumbled up.

2009-12-01T20:45:00.001+08:00

One minute i was happy, another minute i would broke down into tears. The emotions that i'm feeling right now has been going on for the past few days. & i swear i feel like tearing my heart into pieces & throw it into the sea, just so that i wont feel the pain. *Sigh*

Yours truly.

River flows in u.

2009-11-16T01:34:00.001+08:00

Dear boy,

Despite the hard times that i've given u for that past few days/months, ur love towards me never even fade away, not even a bit. U were there for me all along, even when i spit vulgarities at u or kept pushing u around. Many guys gave up on me whenever i throw tantrums towards them & i was hoping that u too, would do the same thing. Yet, somehow, u didnt. Maybe, just maybe, time will tell.. But, then again, looking at ur eyes, my heart tells me that ur different, that ur one in a million & that i'm lucky to have u in my life.

I know i've been an ungrateful bitch towards u. An asshole, too. I hate myself for treating u like this, for hurting u again & again. I even gave up on everything, gave up on myself. But, as usual, u didn't. U didn't give up on me, not at all. Thinking about us, about u, makes me sad cause i dont deserve ur kindness & ur love that u have showered me since day one.

I may not show my care & concern towards u or how much important u are to me, but deep down inside me, ur my everything. In fact, i'm not good in expressing my feelings through actions but through words, yes. Of course, i aint the 'sweet talking muthafucker' that u've known. Its just that this is me, this is who i am & nothing could change that.

Boy, if u were to read this blog of mine, perhaps u could search the answer that u've been waiting for...

Loved u once, love u still, always have, always will. & i would rather fight with u than to kiss someone else.

Yours truly.

Be amazed.

2009-11-15T01:02:00.002+08:00

Subhanallah.. Masyallah.. Those kids who is much more younger than me, could recite the Quran pretty well. Thumbs up for them. Yet, somehow, i'm ashamed of myself, for i am nowhere near perfect of reciting the Quran. ):

Yours truly.

An apology is a good way to have the last word.

2009-11-07T17:19:00.008+08:00

Ibu: Kenapa tak jadi datang rumah?
Me: Ayah tak kasih keluar, ibu. Jadi Nab terpaksa duduk dekat rumah.
Ibu: Oh. Ibu beli ketam. Ingat nak masak dengan Nab.

Speechless. The feeling of guilt surrounds me. Disappointed. Helpless. Promised Love that i'll be coming over to his crib, accompanying Ibu, early in the morning. However, i'm still stuck at home, doing nothing. All thanks to Dad. Pfft. Moron.

*Sigh*
& as usual, i'm having a tiff with Love. Period. *Roll eyes*

Yours truly.

Are we not like two volumes in one book?

2009-11-02T00:03:00.004+08:00

" An anniversary is a time to celebrate the joys of today, the memories of yesterday, and the hopes of tomorrow. "

Second month of being together. Alhamdulillah. (:
More monthlyversaries to come. Insyallah..

Love u, Muhammad Aiman.

Yours truly.

Laughter is an instant vacation.

2009-11-01T01:49:00.006+08:00

Stress Reliever #1:

A young man went to his father one day to tell him that he wanted to get married. His father was happy for him. He asked his son who the girl was, & he told him that it was Samantha, a girl from the neighborhood.

With a sad face, the old man said to his son, " I'm sorry to say this son, but i have to. The girl ur going to marry is ur sister, but please, don't tell ur mother. "

The young man, again, brought three more names to his father. But, ended up frustrated because the response was still the same.

So he decided to go to his mother. " Mom, i want to get married. Unfortunately, father disapprove of me marrying the girls that i love. Cause he said they are my sisters & i musn't tell u. "

His mother smiling, & said to him, " Don't worry my son. U can marry any of those girls. Cause ur not my son. "

Stress Reliever #2:

Doctor: I have bad news & worse news.
Patient: Oh dear, what's the bad news?
Doctor: U only have 24 hours to live.
Patient: That's terrible. How can the news be possibly be worse?
Doctor: I've been trying to contact u since yesterday.

Stress Reliever #3:

A woman gets on a bus with her baby.

Bus driver: That's the ugliest baby that I've ever seen. Ugh!

The woman goes to the rear of the bus and sits down, fuming.

Woman said to a man next to her: The driver just insulted me!
Man next to her: U go right up there & tell him off! Go ahead! In the mean time, i'll hold ur monkey for u.

Stress Reliever #4:

A man and a friend are playing golf one day at their local golf course. One of the guys is about to chip onto the green when he sees a long funeral procession on the road next to the course. He stops in mid-swing, takes off his golf cap, closes his eyes, and bows down in prayer.

His friend: Wow, that is the most thoughtful and touching thing I have ever seen. You truly are a kind man.
The man: Yeah, well we were married for 35 years.

Stress Reliever #5:

Two weasels are sitting on a barstool. One starts to insult the other one.

First weasel: I slept with ur mother!

The bar gets quiet as everyone listens to see what the other weasel will do.
First weasel, again: I SLEPT WITH UR MOTHER!
Second weasel: Go home dad. Ur drunk.

Yours truly.

I beg to differ.

2009-10-28T21:50:00.006+08:00

I've 101 stories that is yet to be told. Yet, somehow, i can't even find the right words to begin with even if i wanted to. Pffft. Moron. Besides, i was figuring out on how much i should begin my post but i gave up after an hour or so of nothing. Pathetic much.

Guess i will post when i've got enough words to fill my head & enough veins to fill my spine.

"I learned the real meaning of love. Love is absolute loyalty. People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades. You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them. And that's love, even if it doesn't seem very exciting."

Yours truly.

ABC, 123, Do Re Mi.

2009-10-25T07:13:00.006+08:00

& his name is Isa Abdullah. Or so i thought.. Bahh~

Yours truly.

Alyssa Bernal.

2009-10-22T02:22:00.002+08:00

THAT'S MY GIRL! (:

Yours truly.

Break your heart.

2009-10-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

Now listen to me baby
[Oh oh oh oh]
Before I love and leave yah
[Oh oh oh oh]
They call me heart-breaker
[Oh oh oh oh]
I don't wanna decive yaaah
[Oh oh oh oh]

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told yah from the start
Baby from the start

I'm only gonna break break your
Break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break your
Break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break your
Break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break your
Break break ya heart

Woah Woah

There's no point trying to hide
[Oh oh oh oh]
No point trying to erase me
[Oh oh oh oh]
I know I gotta problem
[Oh oh oh oh]
By doing this behavour
[Oh oh oh oh]

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start
Baby, from the start

I'm only gonna break break
Ya break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break
Ya break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break
Ya break break ya heart
I'm only gonna break break
Ya break break ya heart

[Woaah woaah]
[Woaah woaah]

Yours truly.

Take a chill pill.

2009-10-07T02:13:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the emotional breakdown earlier on. I just need to let go of this burden that has been clouding my mind for the past few months/days/hours. Nevertheless, i guess it's time for me to ease my mind by watching these videos that i've browsed through. Happy watching people. (:

Yours truly.

Hate-love story.

2009-10-07T01:28:00.009+08:00

Sorry if i hurt ur feelings...
Sorry if i could no longer trust u...
Sorry if i keep blaming u...
Sorry if i'm being delinquent towards u...

I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry..

But, still, ur the one who is to be blame. Ur the one who start the spark. U took advantage of us.

U lied to me.
U lied to them.
U lied to ur husband.
U lied to everyone...

& now, ur blaming me that i don't appreciate what u had done towards us?? Fuck u, mum! U have no idea how much i waste my tears for u every now & then! & u have no idea how much i love u...*Tears started to roll down*

Mum,

If only ur still the mum i used to know, perhaps things wont go this way between us. I just missed u. The old u. I missed u presence at home. I missed talking to u. I missed being pampered by u. I missed everything about u... ):
Do u know how hurt it is when i find out the truth? It's like ur being stabbed by a very sharp knife, countless of times.. That's how it hurts, mum. That's how it hurts.

*SIGH*

Just so u know that i hate u. But at the same time, i love u. Do u get what i mean, mum? It's kind of a hate love story. Ya know? /:

Trust only movement. Cause life happens at the level of events, not of words.- Alfred Adler.

PS: Pardon me for the usage of vulgarities.. /:

Yours truly.

Bite me.

2009-10-05T18:18:00.004+08:00

Compare this video to the one below.

Obviously, the one, above, is way cuter than the one, below. But, of course, the one, below, certainly makes my day. *Giggles*

Yours truly.

Hello to high & dry.

2009-10-02T01:49:00.010+08:00

It's been awhile now. Didn't realize that time flies so fast, without us realizing it, of course. & so, say hello to the owner who have no time to update her blog as regular as possible. All thanks to her busy schedule which makes her a busy bumble bee. (:
Nevertheless, at the very least, i did make an effort to post at least something in refraining it from becoming dead. Right?

Now, now.. Raya '09 was kinda over & it wasn't as fabulous as i've pictured it in my mind. What's more when the feeling of excitement wasn't just there at all eventhough i was surrounded with relatives from mum's side. Apart from that, receiving green packets from the elders is a MUST! So jyeah, i was more than overjoyed to retrieve it from them. Budak kecik pun kalah kan aku oi! *Giggles*
But, all in all, Raya '09 was fine, especially when u get to celebrate with ur partner & their family. Of course, like any other, i can't deny the fact that having them by my side makes me feel so good. Don't u think so? (:

On the other hand, life has been simple for me, it's not just easy. Of course, they are ups & downs in life. Cause life's not always fair. Sometimes, u can get a splinter, even sliding down a rainbow. (:
To sum it all up, life is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unretunarble because all u get back is another box of chocolates. So, ur stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while ur watching the game. Sure, once in a while, u get to eat peanut butter cup or an English toffee BUT it's gone too fast & the taste is fleeting. In the end, u are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly & teeth-shattering nuts, which, if u are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper. Get what i'm trying to say? *Smirk*

Before i forgot, results on the previous exam that i'd took, had arrived yesterday. Unfortunately, pity for me, i can't log in to the ITE portal. Reason being, i forgot my password. *-__-*
Oh well, guess i have to wait till school re-opens huh? Geeee~
I bet my GPA would turn out pretty bad since i don't really study for both papers - AFD & BEV. *Sigh*
What can i say? I'm just not interested in studying anymore... /:
But, on the other hand, i can't wait for school to re-open! *^__^*

& every 2nd, we turned one, for now. Insyallah, there will be another monthsary for us next month. Love u. (:

"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone
whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual
weirdness and call it love."

Yours truly.

Salam Lebaran.

2009-09-19T21:17:00.004+08:00

Dengan tibanya Syawal, maka berakhirlah Ramadhan kita untuk tahun ini. Mudah-mudahan segala puasa dan amalan-amalan pahala yang telah kita cuba tingkatkan disepanjang bulan yang penuh barakah ini akan mendapat keredhaan dan keberkatan Allah. Sebagai hamba Allah yang lemah, kita sebagai manusia tidak lepas dari melakukan kesilapan dalam mengharungi kehidupan yang tanpa kita sedari semakin lama, semakin singkat.

Oleh itu, saya, Siti zainab & keluarga, dengan rasa rendah diri ingin memohon jutaan ampun dan maaf, dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki, diatas segala tingkah laku mengundang sengketa, tutur kata jiwa terasa, termakan terminum tanpa bicara, moga diriku dimaafkan dan diterima seadanya.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
Maaf zahir & batin

Semoga gembira menyambut Aidilfitri bersama keluarga, sanak-saudara dan sahabat-handai. (:

Yours truly.

Friday the 18th.

2009-09-18T03:39:00.005+08:00

She's hot, sexy, beautiful.. u name it. Too bad, she's the ultimate bitch in this movie. (:
Oh well, it premieres in October. Anyone? Love? *Raise one eyebrow*

As random as it sounds, i just can't get over the fact that i already knew how to bake marble cake & anyam the ketupat! All thanks to bf's sister & bf, himself. (:

HIP HIP! HOORAYY!
HIP HIP! HOORAYY!
HIP HIP! HOORAYY!

Yours truly.

Irreplaceble.

2009-09-10T04:22:00.011+08:00

Dearest love, since u know that i'm pretty much in love with cheerleading, would u like to take me out for a movie date? Pretty please? With a strawberry dip with chocolate on top? *Flutter eyelashes*
Or else, i wax kaki u yang berbulu yet kerinting bastard. Tak pun i take hair straightener & straighten ur bulu kaki. Nak tak?! *Giggles*

" All i want to do is to stand close to u, be by ur side. All i want to do is to make the world revolve around u & i. All i want to do in this lifetime is to make u mine. "

Love,

If ur asking if i need u, the answer is forever. If ur asking if i'll leave u, the answer is never. If ur asking what i value, the answer is u. If ur asking if i love u, the answer is, yes, i do. & when i tell u, i love u. I dont say it out of habit or to make conversation. I say it to remind u that ur the best damn thing that ever happened to me. (:

Yours truly.

Is it ur eyes or the pictures is playing a trick on u?

2009-09-07T22:06:00.009+08:00

11 ships or 3 ships & 8 arches

Do u see faces or all houses?

How many horses in this picture? There should be 7, in total. (:

People or faces?

A picture puzzle?

How many people are there?

See more than one deer?

Look at the middle column. Where does it end?

Do u see four people?

Who is the tallest?

A face or the word 'Liar.'

Do you see the word 'LIFT' or a bunch of black splotches ?

Find the faces.

Saw a picture of a baby?

& finally, go ahead & try it. (:

Yours truly.

Excruciatingly random.

2009-09-06T06:16:00.010+08:00

Grandfather has been testing our patience for the past 3 days. He's been making us pulling every strand of our hair & increase the number of wrinkles in our faces. In other words, he's driving us crazy gitu loh. What's more when dad had lost his temper & were about to serang grandfather. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
Too much of a drama eh family aku ni? *Evil laugh*

..........

& so, Mum gave me the green light to quit school whereas dad gave me the red light. Pffft! Lepas tuh ape? Orange light? Asal tak traffic light sekali eh? Grrrrrr!

..........

On a lighter note, perot aku ni dah bunyi gamelan + anklung. Jadi sebelum aku buka langkah nak joget kan, aku rasa ada lebih baiknya aku pergi dapur, bedal makanan-makanan yang ada di dapur. Yang penting, aku tak kejot laki aku bangun sahur. BAEKKKKK PERRRRRRRR? Tsk! *-__-*

..........

F.Y.I, aku tak puasa lah. Paip bocor lah, babe. Lupe nak panggil plumber. *^__^*

Yours truly.

Yesterday...

2009-09-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

& so, here's a quick update on what i did yesterday.

Met up with love & headed to Changi Airport since i had promised Shikin Cyrus & Zreena Baby that we'll be breaking our fast at their work place.
After which, we went to Geylang to survey our Raya clothes & alhamdulillah, i found one for myself - it's negotiable & below our budget. (:
Then, met up with his family at Joo Chiat Complex & i swear my whole body was shivering till my bulu-bulu at my badan macam nak gugur - first time mah, what to do kan. *Chuckles*
& again, we walked & walked till our throats went dry & started to beg for water, especially me, of course - such a drama queen. *-__-*
Finally, after hours of dragging my foot, it's time to go home - love's family sent me home loh. *Melts*

Oh well, memories that would last a lifetime. Heeee~
I love u, Mr Apek! =D

Yours truly.

Joke of the month.

2009-09-03T04:42:00.003+08:00

Stress Reliever #1

Boy: Knock, knock!
Girl: Who's there?
Boy: George Washington!
Girl: George Washington who?
Boy: George Washington who?? Didn't u learn anything in history class?

Stress Reliever #2

Son: Mom, when i was on the bus with dad, this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.
Mom: Well, u have done the right thing.
Son: But mom! I was sitting on daddy's lap!

Stress Reliever #3

On their wedding night:
Husband: Are u sure i'm the first man u are sleeping with?
Wife: Of course honey. I stayed awake with all the others.

Stress Reliever #4

Doctor: U look terribly weak and exhausted. Are u having ur meals three times a day as i have advised?
Lady, his patient: Doctor! I thought u said three males a day?

Stress Reliever #5

Patient: Will it hurt, doctor?
Cosmic Surgeon: Only when u get my bill, Mrs Brown.

Stress Reliever #6

Little Johnny tried out for the school play. The teacher gave him the lines to practice.

" Hark! A pistol shot! There lies a lady with hope in her soul. I think I'll snatch a kiss & run into the forest; By Willian Shakespeare. "

So Little Johnny practices and practices and did the lines perfectly every time. The night of the play, it was his turn to speak. This is what he said.

" Hark! A pigeon shit! There lies a lady with soap in her hole. I think i'll kiss her, snatch and run into the forest; By William Snakeshit... Horseshit.. Oh, shit! I didn't want to be in this damn play anyway! "

Stress Reliever #7

Little Drake was in his math's class one day when the teacher singled him out.

" If i gave u $20, and u gave $5 to Mary, $5 to Sally and $5 to susan. What would u get? "

& so, he replied.

" An orgy. "

Stress Reliever #8

John and David were both patients in a Mental Hospital. One day, John suddenly dived into the deep end of the swimming pool. David jumped in and saved him, and the Medical Director came to know of his heroic act. He immediately order David to be discharged from the Mental Hospital as he is ok.

Doctor: We have good and bad news for u. The good news is that we are going to discharge u because u have regained ur senses, since u are able to jump in and save another patient. U are now a normal person. The bad news is that, the patient, Mr John, whom u have saved, hung himself in the toilet and died.
David: Doctor, he didn't hang himsef. I hung him there.. to dry.

Stress Reliever #9

Do u know why women over fifty can't bear any babies?

Answer: They would put them down somewhere and forget where they left them.

Stress Reliever #10

To stop her four-year old daughter from biting her nails, her mother tells her it'll make her fat.

" I won't do it any more, Mom, " says the daughter.

Next day they are out walking when they meet a very fat man.

" If I bite my fingernails, I'll be as fat as that, won't I Mom?"

" You'll be fatter than that," says her mother.

They get on a bus, and sitting opposite them is a very pregnant lady. The little girl can't take her eyes off the woman's belly. The pregnant lady feels increasingly uncomfortable under this stare.

She finally leans forward and says to the little girl, " Excuse me, but do you know me?"

And the little girl says, " No, but I know what you've been doing..."

Yours truly.

Head over heals.

2009-09-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

Eiffel, I'm in love.

"Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and
loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don't
become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved
ones."

& baby, u had me from the day u smiled. I love u, bacin! (:
Will be meeting u in 12 hours time. *Giggles*

Yours truly.

& everything seems to be brand new.

2009-09-01T15:38:00.001+08:00

A new start. A new beginning. & this, i promise, that this will be the last time i'll be changing the URL. (:

Yours truly.